tonight we were all talking about what's going to be the next big social networking site...and we all realized that we all started with xanga! and i missed it. so i thought it'd be nice to write something down.

unfortunately i dont really have anything to write about.
that's a bummer...
i could recap '08 since it is a new year...but it wasnt a monumental one really...i think the most interesting thing that happened was that EVERYONE I KNOW GOT ENGAGED/MARRIED.
and all i did was date a cowboy for 2 seconds and make plenty of other poor choices regarding boys. lame!

actually, you know, 2008 was kind of monumental. in a...small way...if you can have a small monumental thing. that sounds stupid.
i faced some of my biggest fears this past semester...i had a faculty interview for the art program...that was flippin scary...i'm real chatty when i know someone, or they're easy to talk to...but i freeze when it comes to public speaking. i did a pretty bad job i'll admit, but this time last year i would have rather chopped off one of my fingers than talk for 40 minutes about anything.
so bam! eat that, old, socially awkward homeschool rachel!
i also seem to have ditched a number of my morals along the way...they arent necessarily the important ones in my book, at least not anymore...but its weird that those things i once deemed sooo unholy are no big deal and sometimes a weekend activity. and a fun one at that.

i just dont really know where my head is anymore. i keep doing things i never would have done before. i dont know if that's progression and change for the good, or me just making bad decisions and loving every minute of it.

oh well!

i think i'll just stop at that. :)

-rk

i left you waiting
at the least could we be friends?
should have never started
aint that the way it always ends?
on my life i'll try today
there's so much i've felt i should say
but even if your heart would listen
i doubt i could explain

if you don't know, why'd you say so?
would you mean this please if it happens?
if you don't know, why would you say so?
won't you get your story straight?
if you don't know, honey why'd you just say so?
cause i need this now more than i ever did,
if you don't, well honey, then you don't.

so here we are now...
a sip of wine
a sip of water
someday maybe
maybe someday we'll be smarter
and i'm sorry that i'm such a mess
i drank all my money could get
i took everything you let me have
and then i never loved you back...

-j.e.w.